Thursday, September 30, 2010
Saturday, September 18, 2010
The Next Volume
Growing up. Those are definitely two words that carry so much with them. There's so much change, whether good or...undesired, that comes along with it. We all desire the good that comes with growing up, but it's the tougher times and choices that we often fear. I've grown so much over the past few years, as I'm sure most of you also have. I've had the pleasure of seeing some of you grow over the years, through the good times and the bad, in the end we learn from them all.
I've reached another one of those "growing up" moments recently. Been keeping most of it to myself, trying to process it all, to understand the complexities, feelings and fears that come along with it. Surprisingly, I've been stronger than I ever thought possible. I guess I've grown up more than I even knew. But as much as one's mind can understand something, it's often the heart that has a tougher time keeping up.
Almost nine years ago, December 1st, 2001 to be exact, my life changed. It's a story I'm sure many of you have heard before...the day I met Him. The day that so much would change. Two young college students meet for the first time and start out on their journey together. We've shared so many beautiful moments together, literally traveled (parts of) the world, met so many great people and new friends along the way...and just learned so much from each other. He taught me how to be a more confident person, a stronger person, and to never think any less than the best of myself.
Even when things were toughest, he's been there for me, as I have for him. Beyond a boyfriend...he's been a true love...he's been the best friend I could ever ask for. I loved, love now and always will love him. Perhaps that's a major reason I've been stronger than I thought I'd be. That strong bond that we always shared and still do, and I know nothing can ever break, has helped me cope with this new stage in our lives.
Oh yeah and if you hadn't caught on by now... yes, we're breaking up. :( Uggh..."breaking up." Such an ugly phrase. Why don't we just say...hmmm....we've "reached the end of this volume." Yeah, I like that better. There are many more "JuaNel" volumes to come, but for now, this one's come to a close. What's next? Neither of us truly knows, turns out these volumes aren't written in advance. They just kinda happen and anything is possible. All I can hope for is that this story is always as happy as it can be. Whether in the ultimate scheme of things we are meant to truly be together, as a couple, that's something that only time will tell. I never close off my heart to any possibility. But for now, we still have that strong friendship love that's been there from the start. The things we put up from one another...trust me nobody else could deal with. lol
Oh and before the tabloids start spreading rumors... there's no drama, we didn't have a big fight, there's no anger or hatred. It's not that kind of breakup. I won't be releasing his drunken angry voicemails and he won't let that video tape of me see the light of day. hehe (A little humor to lighten the mood.)
At the moment I'd prefer to leave it at that. I don't feel the need to say more for now. We still have nothing but love and respect for each other. But I guess it had to come to this. I wish it didn't have to be this way...I've shed my tears and probably more to come...it's hard adjusting to new things, but I guess that's just life for ya. Always has a trick or two up its sleeve.
I've reached another one of those "growing up" moments recently. Been keeping most of it to myself, trying to process it all, to understand the complexities, feelings and fears that come along with it. Surprisingly, I've been stronger than I ever thought possible. I guess I've grown up more than I even knew. But as much as one's mind can understand something, it's often the heart that has a tougher time keeping up.
Almost nine years ago, December 1st, 2001 to be exact, my life changed. It's a story I'm sure many of you have heard before...the day I met Him. The day that so much would change. Two young college students meet for the first time and start out on their journey together. We've shared so many beautiful moments together, literally traveled (parts of) the world, met so many great people and new friends along the way...and just learned so much from each other. He taught me how to be a more confident person, a stronger person, and to never think any less than the best of myself.
Even when things were toughest, he's been there for me, as I have for him. Beyond a boyfriend...he's been a true love...he's been the best friend I could ever ask for. I loved, love now and always will love him. Perhaps that's a major reason I've been stronger than I thought I'd be. That strong bond that we always shared and still do, and I know nothing can ever break, has helped me cope with this new stage in our lives.
Oh yeah and if you hadn't caught on by now... yes, we're breaking up. :( Uggh..."breaking up." Such an ugly phrase. Why don't we just say...hmmm....we've "reached the end of this volume." Yeah, I like that better. There are many more "JuaNel" volumes to come, but for now, this one's come to a close. What's next? Neither of us truly knows, turns out these volumes aren't written in advance. They just kinda happen and anything is possible. All I can hope for is that this story is always as happy as it can be. Whether in the ultimate scheme of things we are meant to truly be together, as a couple, that's something that only time will tell. I never close off my heart to any possibility. But for now, we still have that strong friendship love that's been there from the start. The things we put up from one another...trust me nobody else could deal with. lol
Oh and before the tabloids start spreading rumors... there's no drama, we didn't have a big fight, there's no anger or hatred. It's not that kind of breakup. I won't be releasing his drunken angry voicemails and he won't let that video tape of me see the light of day. hehe (A little humor to lighten the mood.)
At the moment I'd prefer to leave it at that. I don't feel the need to say more for now. We still have nothing but love and respect for each other. But I guess it had to come to this. I wish it didn't have to be this way...I've shed my tears and probably more to come...it's hard adjusting to new things, but I guess that's just life for ya. Always has a trick or two up its sleeve.
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