Just Another Blog

When I first started this blog (which is actually my second one! Or...third one if you count my MySpace one) I planned to use it more as a place to jot down my thoughts, feelings, observations and anything going on in my life that I felt was worth writing about. But then I realized my life can be pretty dull and ordinary most of the time. Who wants to read that? It's hard enough convincing even my own friends to read all this, much less strangers. lol

So lately I tend to just put up random, funny, weird or just plain silly things I come across and write a few things about them. Or just post videos, pictures, etc. Every now and then I may sound like some commercial for a person, product or thing that I love. Though trust me, I don't get paid for any of that. lol

I have fun though. If nothing else, it's a way to entertain myself. To write more. To kill some when needed. And if I'm lucky, maybe actually entertain a couple of people out there for a few seconds. hehe I may be just another blog...but it's MY blog. And that's what makes it special. **cue a collective "awww" from the audience and some sentimental strings music**

Mental Gems

I'll often find myself going about my day, at work, in the car, out and about, doing whatever may come up...when suddenly, a random thought, story or idea will pop into my mind. A little creative, funny, amusing, witty or just plain randomly strange topic that I want to write about in my blog. As soon as I think of it, I start to "write it" in my mind. I imagine what I want to say, punchlines and all. But then, once I finally get to a computer and have time to write it...all that magic that was happening in my head turns to poo! lol I end up forgetting exactly what I wanted to say, or how I wanted to say it. And often, it just doesn't seem as satisfying anymore as it did in my head. Seriously...we need to invent some sort of machine that'll take mental dictations. I'll hook it up to my noggin and I can mentally command it to jot down what I'm thinking. Wouldn't that be nice? Then you'd all get the best of my mental gems, not just the crappy stuff I manage to spew out. lol

On Blogging

I think I'm a "sad blogger". Let me explain...

Things are going good right now in my life. I won't say "perfect" because I don't believe in that. Nothing can ever truly be perfect. There's always going to be at least a few things, even if miniscule, that'll probably bug you. Right now, for instance, I'd probably say it's my job. I don't hate it or anything, but I just keep feeling like it might be time for me to start moving on to the next job. Where that is, I'm not sure. I don't really even know what it is I want to do. All I know is I love entertainment/media related companies and I like to work in an office. Luckily I live in L.A., entertainment capital, so there's lots of choices. But I'm going on a tangent now...that's not what I was going to talk about.

I was thinking about what motivates me to write. Looking back at the blogs and diaries I've kept in the past, I noticed that I tend to write more when I'm feeling sad, lost, depressed, confused, scared or other similar feelings. Feelings that drive me crazy and eat me up and I just need to let out. Writing became an outlet. Through my words, I could share what was going on inside me and not feel so alone. I welcomed the comfort and support of the kind words of my friends (and some times random readers). At one point I was even writing on an actual paper diary, which I hadn't done in a while!

Luckily, things got calm over time. Several aspects of my life that were troubling me started to finally come together. I got happier. And then some of the blogs stopped. I still wrote, but just not as often. I usually wrote when I did something like going on a trip, things I wanted to remember. But I didn't really write too much about all the "feelings" of love, joy, happiness, etc. So why is it that I'm more motivated to jot down the darker sides of my feelings....and not the happier ones? Maybe it's because when I'm happy, I'm out there doing those happy things? Whereas when I'm sad, I'm at home in my dark room with nothing else to do? Or perhaps it's just that those feelings of sadness were aching to get out, to be released, in hopes of feeling better. It was my therapy.

I want to try to write more again. Even if just about random silly things that happen. It's a bit hard to keep up with this. I get caught up with doing other things and then forget about this blog. But I want to write things down again. Hell, my memory's not getting any better as I grow older! LOL It'd be nice to have somethign to look back on down the road.

Guess Who's Back!?

I'm back! Another day, another blog!

I haven't kept a real blog in a while. Sure, I've posted many things on the MySpace, but many people don't even read those that often. I also don't like how their blogs are hard to navigate. They don't have an easy way to track older posts. Plus I usually only post there when I feel like I really have something to say. When it's worth the effort. But here...this is where I want to just post whatever random things come to my mind.

Like just this morning, for instance. I was driving to work and came across a street that was closed off, so all the cars had to turn left or right. I was in the center lane so I decided to merge to the right, for a right turn. Then this idiot behind me starts honking at me, I look at him and see him waving his hands like a lunatic in that "move it, hurry up" fashion! There were roadblock cones in front of me, and a big ass truck to my side...I was waiting patiently (and safely) to get through. But noooo...he just had to get through. So the bastard speeds up, goes around me to my left, and just barely squeezes between me and the cones to cut in front of me. I seriously felt like purposely ramming his car! (But in that brief "crazy fantasy world" way.) Seriously...what the hell was up with him that he couldn't wait for me to merge safely? Sheesh!

So yeah, now that I got that off my chest....look for more to come! :)