Empty

I'm beginning to wonder what feels worse... being in a state of absoulute sadness or feeling empty inside? Sadness brings with it lots of hurt, pain and endless tears. The empty feeling, on the other hand, doesn't bring much. You end up looking almost normal on the surface, but within you feel so empty. It's like you're just sleepwalking through life.

I'm still a mix of both. At times I still feel pretty down and sad, but other times I end up just feeling so empty. I don't like either. I wish I could get past all this and just be happy again. Even if I'm meant to be alone, unloved... I just wanna feel happy. :-/