One *cough* Week

It's been one week as of today. One week since we moved from our apartment and each went our way. One week since i last saw him. One week since I last felt I still had a true 'home'.

Now, don't get me wrong. I love my family and appreciate them letting me crash here. Plus, it has actually been nice spending time here. Has helped keep me distracted from things. Though truth be told, nothing can truly distract me completely from what I'm going through. It's always on my mind no matter what I do. But being surrounded by family and love helps heal the pain. Still, I'm trying to figure out what my next step is. Crashing on the couch and living out my stuff in boxes is fine for a while, but I can't keep this up for too long. Either I find a nice affordable place of my own, or a roomie. But still, it's tough. Everything is just hard emotionally on me right now. Fortunately I've managed to function ok for the most part, but I still have moments when I feel sad, lonely and miss so many things. Most of all, miss Him.

But at least for now, the first week is over. It was tough. Especially the one morning I was *this close* to having a crying breakdown at work. Fortunately, I kept it in. If I was gonna have a breakdown, I didn't want it to be at work. It's been a tough week overall...emotionally and physically. Work's been hectic and then there's the longer commute now that's been taking a toll on my car, wallet and sanity!

As if all this wasn't enough, now I'm sick too! :( Felt an itchy throat last night, then today been having a sore throat all day and now a runny nose and sneezing, too. It sucks! Just can't get a break this week, I guess.

I just keep hoping for better days ahead...