Sneeze-O-Rama

I woke up yesterday feeling pretty much "OK" for a Monday morning. Sure, I had my usual grumpy mood just because the weekend was over and it was back to work for another 5 days. But what can I do, right? It's gotta be done.

It was a slow day at the office, many people were out and not a lot of work came in. For most of the day I felt ok. I even ate my lunch while I was still working so I could just use my actual lunch hour to go out for a nice one hour active walk. You know...what with me trying to be more "healthy." lol So there I was, out in this hot weather, going for a walk. And what happens? Damn allergies is what happened! After I got back, I came back with a runny itchy nose and watery eyes and just felt like crap! So those last two hours of work were no fun at all. Later that night, J and I went to have dinner and then to Target, so I got some allergy pills there. I still woke up feeling allergy-crappy this morning. But now I've taken a pill and as of this minute I'm feeling a bit better than I was an hour ago. I hope I can pull through the day without feeling all crappy and hazy. I wanna be like those Claritin commercials where they take the people out of their funky hazy feeling. lol Still...I didn't use Claritin. But it better still work. lol

Is there such a thing as being allergic to the sun? I seem to notice that many times when I get this allergic reaction is when I'm out on a sunny day. Like one time I went to Disneyland, feeling normal, but by day's end I felt like tearing my nose and eyes out! lol Same thing happened once at a beach, I felt normal and then later on felt crappy. I guess it's kind of a good thing then that I don't have to work outside. But kinda makes me think twice about whether I want to go back out on my lunch hour walk today. I was doing so good with that all last week! I'd hate to stop now. But is it really worth it if I'll come back again feeling crappy afterward? But hmm...maybe this allergy med will help. Honestly, I'm not even 100% sure I have allergies. lol But based on what I've felt and how it just hits suddenly, I'm guessing I must have some, albeit maybe not as often and as strong as some other people.

Fat, be gone!

I hate you! You annoying dirty little son of a bitch! Why won't you go away? Why must you always cling to me, being a constant pesky presence and reminder of my failures as a human beign? Why can't you finally just go away, shrivel up somewhere and die like the worthless piece of crap you are? Why, why, why? Just leave already! Damn you! Yes, I'm talking to you...Fat!

So yeah...I'm sick and tired of feeling "fat". And I have to admit, I use the term "fat" loosely. If you look at me, you probably wouldn't think of me as fat. I'm kinda tall and have thin arms and so I do look like I'm thin all over. But I do have a tummy troubles, though...just like many of us here in America. Usually the clothes can hide it pretty well. But once it's just me, alone and naked...that's when the secret's out. lol Plus, there are times when I stop caring much and just eat whatever crap I want...then it starts to show in my face. People start to comment on how I look "bigger" and I start to notice it in my own pictures. That's usually when I'm reminded I need to do something. Like I've just started to again this week.

I've already been eating a bit better for a while. I no longer go out to fast food places every day for lunch like I used to. I bring my own food from home, usually something light and healthy. And I can usually finish it pretty quickly at lunch, which would then leave me time to just play on the net and browse around. But no more of that! I'm going to try to go out for a 30 minute walk outside the office, after I finish my actual eating during lunch. And when I get home, I want to go back to doing some exercises. I don't really want to go jogging at night around where I live, lately just doesn't feel as safe anymore with what I've seen in the news. So I'm just doing it all at home for now. Maybe once I see some results and feel more "active" I'll try a gym, too. Another thing I'm working on is watching what I eat when I do go eat out. Instead of the stacked up greasy burgers and fries, I'll try to eat lighter dishes, grilled chickens, salads, etc. I also need to cut down on all my sugary drinks. I love smoothies and lemonades when I go out to eat...but as Juan pointed out water is way healthier and cheaper (i.e. free lol).

In the end, I have nobody to blame but myself if I don't like how my body looks. I don't necessarily want a big buff toned body, although hell...that WOULD be nice! But honestly, I just want a flat tummy and thinner face....just to look better, healthier. I see guys in magazines, in movies, in ads, jogging out in public...all over...with the nice healthy in-shape bodies that I've always wanted to have. It just kills me when I go home and it's still just me...Mr. Out-Of-Shape and always lazy and tired. lol

Will this be the one time I finally stick to my new lifestyle choices and get in better shape? Only time will tell. Maybe I need to do something dramatic. Like take pictures of myself in my underwear and then say that if I don't reach certain goals within a time frame, they'll be released to the public. lol I saw that somewhere....was it Oprah maybe? I don't know...but seemed like a good idea that would work on me. The threath of having those gross pictures released if I don't keep in shape. lol

Oh well, here we go...day three of my latest goals. I should weigh myself soon so I have a starting point to look back on and compare later.

Daft Punk - Harder Bodies

I could soooo do this. But I just don't want to. :) So I'll let these guys take over. Enjoy! lol

Another Weekend Ends

It's Monday yet again, another three day weekend has come and gone. Why must it end!? lol I took last Friday off from work just because Juan was on Spring break and since I don't get such a break, I wanted to take a couple days off with him. I took the Monday for his birthday, and then Friday just to hang out. I'll tell you right now, we didn't do that much all weekend. But it doesn't matter. Just spending time with him means a lot. Yeah I know what you're thinking...enough with the mushy love stuff.

Anyhow, let's see. I went over to his house Thursday night, as has become a sort of unofficial tradition, to the point that even my family is surprised when I do go home on a Thursday night. lol We just ordered some pizza that night, pigged out a bit, and chilled. Friday we ran a couple of errands he needed, and then had lunch at a CPK. It was nice. Having lunch with him on a Friday instead of being at work...oh so definitely worth every minute of it! lol That night we were kinda trying to figure out what to do. Neither of us was in much of a clubbing mode, there weren't any movies we really wanted to see at the time, so he suggested we just go to Best Buy and just look around. We both love electronics and all that stuff, so we love to just browse those types of stores and look at all the goodies we wish we could get. hehe Earlier that day, I bought a Maroon 5 CD, their latest, so I took it with me in the car and we listened to it together. We ended up missing a turn and drove a bit further than we needed to. But thinking back to it, driving around just listening to that CD and talking, it was nice. Reminds me of one time when we just stopped the car near a beach, turned on a Madonna CD he had in his car, and just sat there, staring out into the night, listening to the music. Yet another thing I'd rather be doing now than having to be back at work. lol

On Saturday we didn't do too much either. We did watch some episodes of Just For Laughs. That's one of our favorite things to watch together. We always share many good laughs with that show. It's another of our little unofficial traditions. lol He records them for us and waits for me to visit and we watch them together. Laughter is fun when you're on your own to make you feel good, but sharing it with somebody is even greater. That night he ended up going out with his cousin to the pool, but I needed to get back home and take care of some tasks. I washed my car, cut my hair, shaved, showered, paid a few bills, checked mail, etc. I was then freshly shaven and groomed and felt good. But I didn't end up going out that night. Didn't really make any plans with other people and didn't feel like the bars where Juan was going. (Although in the end he ended up at Arena. grrr! lol) Still, I had my Angel DVDs to keep me company. I ended up falling asleep kinda early, and I was up bright and early on Sunday morning. I spent the morning just chilling at home, trying to keep cool in the 90+ weather! Damn crazy weather! Now I hear today it's gonna be cooler and through the week it'll be in the 60's or so! By next weekend a 30 degree drop from this weekend. Crazy, I tell ya! I don't like the very hot days or the very cold days, I just like it in the middle. :) But being a hot day yesterday, it was perfect weather for some ice cold smoothies. We stopped by this place near my house and had a smoothie. Strawberry Banana for him, and plain Banana for me. :) Yet again, another one of those "moments" I think back to and would love to be doing again right now. hehe My night then ended with a fresh episode of Desperate Housewives. I still love watching that show, but honestly I feel like it's kind of lost it's spark. But hopefully something very interesting happens soon to pick the show up. :)

So that was my weekend. Nothing too exciting, but full of several moments that I wish I could go back to and escape this working world. lol We're thinking of trying to go out of town soon, maybe just somewhere not too far, driving distance. Should be nice, to get away together again. It's nice to escape from the usual and visit new places, especially when I get to go with the person I love. I always love those trips. hehe And now that I think of it, today would've been our official six year anniversary. Six years ago today we made our relationship "official." But along the way...things happened. All that matters now is that we're together and things are going great. I couldn't be happier. I now count the day we first met as our anniversary. Because that was truly when it all began.

I love you! And thanks for the little toy cars! lol

Kid At Heart

There are times when even I scare myself...just a bit...at how excited I can get over things that only a 5 year old should. lol Over at Juan's house, he had some cereal, Lucky Charms, in which they had some little cheap plastic toy cars inside the box, to promote the new Speed Racer movie. I was never a fan a Speed Racer and didn't watch the cartoons, but I knew who he was and I'll probably go check out the movie, too. But still, for whatever reason, I was like a little kid when he gave me one of the cars, the red one, the #33 "3 Roses" one...whatever that means. I was entertained for a few minutes putting the little stickers on the car. lol Most guys would probably be embarrassed to admit this, but I don't care! I even kept asking for the other car that I knew was in the second box. lol That one ended up being #12 "Hydra Cell". Again, no idea who or what that means, but I had fun decorating it with the stickers. lol I won't actually end up playing with them though. I just like to have them as little decorations. I lost that bit of imagination that kids possess long ago...the one that allows them to have endless hours of fun with random little objects or toys. Still, I've always felt I'm a kid at heart to some degree. I love cartoons, love amusement parks, stuff like that...just like to have a good time. I know if I ever do manage to have a kid, I'll try to be a fun dad. hehe Strict, yet fun! Can't let them always have their way after all, right?

What's the last thing you've done that made you feel like a kid at heart?

WHA!? Studios (Free MP3 Mashups)

I don't remember how I came across this site, www.whastudios.com, but it had two of my favorite words "Free" and "Music". You just can't beat that, right? lol I first came across the mashups featuring Scissor Sisters songs, but then I saw they also had this other album up, Mashups of the Year 2007. I've been listening to that one streaming through their site right now...so far I'm really enjoying it! I'm downloading the full zip file too with all the songs. It'll soon be on my iPod. It's all free and legit, so check it out!

Some info from the site:

The WHA!? started as a bootleg compilation series by Simon Iddol. The basic concept was simple, collect the best mashups, organize them into a themed compilation and present it to the mass audience. The WHA!? bootleg series had 9 albums. Each album received thousand and thousands of downloads and resulted more spotlight for the featured producers and for the bootleg scene general. Simon Iddol has decided to use the power and popularity of the WHA!? to help other artists and he turned the WHA!? project into a netlabel. Now the WHA!? is open for other artists as well, to release their music. Enjoy it!

Click on each album cover to check out the full details, along with track listings, the download links and a streaming music player (for if you want to play the songs before downloading). Spread the word!

Juan's Bday Weekend

Where did the weekend go? It just flew by so fast! lol Yesterday was Juan's bday so the celebrations started early last Friday night...

I got home from a long, yet kinda slow, week at work and chilled for a bit, then hit the shower, gave myself a nice smooth shave, picked out some random clothes...I really should get new clothes!....then I waited for him to arrive. Once he did, I drove us to his cousin's to pick him and some other friends up, and we headed out to Circus. It was another busy Friday night at the club, saw several friends and many familiar random anonymous faces. You know...the usual club suspects. But we had a good time. It was fun. The next morning, Saturday, we headed to Bunker Hill in Downtown L.A. for his BBQ Pool Party. It was more of a small gathering than an actual party, but it was nice nonetheless. I wasn't in a pool mood though, so I just chilled poolside...by myself. lol Nobody was land-lovin' that day so I had to rely on my iPod. hehe We were there all day and into the night, til around 10pm. Then we headed back home. Sunday and Monday we mostly chilled out near Juan's place. I took the day off yesterday, Monday, for his actual bday. We ate together and went to the movies (The Ruins). Just spent time together, the two of us. It was nice. I wish I could've planned something more exciting, but I know he had a nice time. And myself...I really love those moments, where we just get to spend time together...doesn't matter where we are or what we do. That's what matters, being with the people you care about, right?

So needless to say, I missed him from the moment I had to leave last night and at work today. I just wanted to be back at his side, chilling, laughing, talking and just having a nice time. :) But luckily I'm taking Friday off too, so this is going to be a short week and then it's another three day weekend coming up!!!

I can't wait!