Where Do We Go From Here?

Last Saturday night we had some nice, fun plans. Go out for a couple of drinks and just enjoy the night at some of the local bars in West Hollywood. Living closer to the area, it's just a short drive on the streets. So we got ready and head on out. We arrived to the area and park in our usual valet parking lot. "We close at 2:30," the guy tells us. Ok, fine with us. They kick us out of the bars before 2 anyway. So we had a couple margaritas at Fiesta Cantina, ran into our friend Carlos celebrating his birthday and made a couple of random new friends along the way. Seconds turned to minutes, minutes to hours and before we knew it...closing time. We didn't have to go home but we can't stay there (at the bar) as the song would say. hehe

It was 2:00 already, as I kept looking at the time on my cell, keeping track of how soon we had to head back to the car. While walking along the sidewalk we started talking to some random people, accompanied them to a pizza place, talked about travels and whatnot...and before I knew it, I looked at the time. 2:40 am! Dammit! "We gotta go get the car, think they'll still be there?" Turns out...they weren't kidding with the original "we close at 2:30" warning!

We got back to the parking lot and my car was just one of a few left! The little valet parking kiosk was all locked up now, nobody in sight. :( Hopeful, I went and tried to open the doors to my car. Maybe they left my keys in there? lol Part of me wanted it to be so, but part of me would've also thought it was irresponsible of them. There was only enough irresponsibility that night on our part! lol



We were pretty much stuck. Juan had left his keys at home. My house keys were with the car keys. We didn't go out with others that night and even if we did get a ride home we couldn't go inside! Juan called the number on the valet's sign, and they said we'd have to come back the next day...at 2pm! So we had no choice...we went to a hotel a few blocks down, the Ramada, and spent the night. It was actually nice and comfy! Not the cheapest, but hey, we couldn't be too picky. Though walking in there did feel a bit awkward. Two guys, no luggage, no car, walking into a hotel at 3am in a mostly gay area. Hmmm....what could the front desk have thought? lol

As night-out-drinking stories go, this one is way too tame when compared to others I've heard about. lol We didn't have to sleep in the park or anything. Phew! We ended up leaving the hotel at around almost 1 pm the next day, after having had a good night's rest. It did suck we didn't have any toothpaste or contact solution, etc. At least we were able to shower! We then had a nice filling breakfast at the IHOP nearby and finally picked up our car keys...12 hours after the bars closed the night before, and an extra $15 day fee later!

Good times. :)

AIDS WALK L.A. - One Year Later

First off, before anything else, I want to say a big THANK YOU to everyone that supported me and our team during and leading up to the AIDS WALK L.A.

To the following, thank you so much for sponsoring me this year... Peter, Reyna & Family, Hypnos Reveur, Christian, Francisco, Juan, Kevin & Marcial. I appreciate your support (and your dinero!), as do those that it goes toward helping. And to Gabe, thanks for the team donation. And everybody else that donated to any other member of our team, you all rock!
And to our team this year, Friends 4 Benefits (aka Friends With Benefits), thank you all for making this, our fourth year, another successful one! I had set a team goal of $4,000 this year, and we got pretty close. As of the last numbers given to me, we raised $3,295 with a team of 28. Though some of you didn't or couldn't make the walk. Tsk tsk! lol Next year, then!

Special kudos to those that made it this year for the 6 mile walk! Anthony A., Ramiro C., Xavier E., Andy G., Oscar G., Juan G., William H., Juan L., Xavier M., Craig M., Richard R., Connie R., Adolfo R., Miguel T. Thank you all for walking this year! I expect each of you back, plus many more, for year 5! FRIENDS WITH BENEFIT5! ;)

I wasn't able to dedicate as much time this year as I would've wanted putting the team together, but I did my best. Whenever I had time, I tried to promote it, spread the word, recruit, encourage and at the same time still try to get some donors for myself. hehe It was all worth it though, and I'll do it again! All the support and positive energy from everybody is what makes it all worth it for a great cause. Just being there, surrounded by thousands upon thousands of fellow walkers on that one morning...and knowing we are all there for a united cause...that alone, is totally worth it.

Thanks again everyone!
-Nel

Vegas, Continued...

So let's see, where did I leave off on our Vegas trip. Oh yeah...Juan was taking a nap while I wrote the first blog online. hehe

After his short nap, we got dressed up for the night. Juan was looking way more "fierce", as he'd put it, than I was. I regret not having packed something nicer to dress up. hehe Lots of people were looking all nice and fancy dressing up for the night out on the strip. But then again, a bunch of them end up drunk and wasted by the end of the night looking like total messes. lol Anyway...the plan was to check out the Madame Tussauds wax museum out at The Venetian, then have dinner near there and hit a bar or club after.

Since we had Juan's car there, he decided he'd drive it that night. Our mistake was taking Las Vegas Blvd to get to the Venetian at the other end of the strip. We were staying near the southern end while the museum was located at the northern end. Trying to get to that traffic on the strip took a long time! We had to make it before it closed at ten, and we had just over an hour left. Once we finally got the the Venetian we missed the parking lot entrance (it was confusing...so many cars, people, lights, turns, etc.), so we had to work our way back again. In the end we figured it was too late for the museum but we'd go in and park anyway, at least to get dinner. After we parked we walked over to the museum to at least know where it was at, hoping we could visit it the next morning. But fortunately, turns out the 10:00 closing time I saw online was wrong! They closed at 11:00 that day, so we still had time. We went in and had a fun time taking pictures with all the celebrities, including the one and only Buffy! hehe

After the museum we grabbed a bite to eat (and shared at Margarita) at a Mexican place in the food court. It was pretty good. We then just went back to the car and drove to one of the gay clubs nearby. We ended up going to the Piranha / 8 1/2 Lounge. I guess it's two clubs in one or something. Turned out the cover charge was $20, which kinda seemed a bit too much since we weren't sure if we'd even like the place. Just as we started to walk away from the line, this black drag queen diva calls to us, asking us why we were leaving. "Is it the price? A bit much?" Juan tells her that we at least want to check out a few of the nearby free spots first. So she says, "We run the place across the street too (Gypsy), but look at our line and look at theirs. Trust me, you'll be back. And when you are, I can get you in for $10 each." We take her up on the offer and go check out Gypsy. The diva was right! Place was dead empty. We walk right back out and go back to her club. She takes us to the front of the line and gets us in as her special guests. She was so nice! The place itself was pretty cool. We just danced a bit and chilled. Didn't drink anymore so we wouldn't be feeling out of it the next morning, especially since Juan had a long drive ahead. After the club we just decided, to call it a night. Juan was especially tired so we went back to the room and had our final good night of rest in our comfy bed.

We woke up at 10 the next morning, Sunday, and right away went down and hit the pools for one final time. Even at 10 in the morning they were already full of people and the water felt so nice and warm. We took a few pictures and chilled then just went back to the room at 11:30 to shower up and pack. Check out time was 12:00, and it was a breeze to check out, quick & easy. Overall, our stay at the Four Seasons was definitely a wonderful experience. Very clean, beautiful, friendly staff and overall warm welcoming environment. Definitely would recommend it if you ever want to stay there, especially for a romantic couples retreat! :)

After we checked out we hit the lunch buffet one more time, at Excalibur, and then hit the road back to L.A. We left at 2 and arrived to L.A. by 7, this time not stopping at all. (Thanks Juan for driving us!) The road trip itself, even during traffic jams, is a nice experience. Just spending time together, enjoying the music, conversations and views.

It was tough having to see the weekend come to an end, but I truly enjoyed every single second of it. And here comes the lovey mushy stuff, so those of you not into that, tune away... lol Despite the nice hotel, relaxing pools, soothing sauna and all the goodies...what truly makes this, and every other vacation, so memorable is just getting to spend the time with Juan. That's what I love most in the end and means so much to me. Which is why seeing it end and having to part ways with him for a while is always tough. But I always look back on these memorable trips and feel happy, looking forward to the next ones, wherever they may take us. Love you sweetie!

Oh and one more thing...just wanted to mention my two favorite funny moments on this trip. One was when we were at the wax museum and met up with Johnny Depp. His figure had this stare going on, so I told Juan to stare him down, eye to eye, for the pic. But he looked almost way too real, especially the eyes, and it freaked Juan out a bit and he just didn't want to get up close to him. LOL Eventually he finally did, but it was just funny seeing him not want to stare him down, eventhough we knew he wasn't real. :) The other funny moment was of my own doing... We had arrived at our hotel's spa locker room, because we were going to hit the sauna. They gave us each a locker key and when I went to mine I saw a robe, towel, sandals, razor and a bag in there. I quickly closed it and said "Someone's stuff is in there!" To which Juan replied, "It's yours!" LOL Usually when I open a locker at the gym with stuff in it, it belongs to someone else that just didn't lock it. So I guess just by experience I didn't think right away that it was my stuff that they were letting me use. hehe

Greetings From Vegas

It's past 7:30 right now, Saturday night. I find myself here in Vegas for the third time, with Juan. I remember the first time we visited together we stayed at Circus Circus...probably the cheapest on the strip of the big hotels...and I did a lot of the touristy stuff, even buying souvenirs. lol I had a good time. The second time we went was for Juan's Bday and we were joined by some friends. Now this, our third time, was the first time we (well, HE) drove to Vegas rather than fly. We left Friday afternoon at around 2:30 and arrived around 7:30 (with a brief stop at a Barstow Baja Fresh to eat). It was a fun drive, we just listened to music and enjoyed the scenery (when there was some) and enjoyed each others company.

We're staying at the Four Seasons this time, 39th floor, located above the Mandalay Bay, which we absolutely love! The room is really nice, clean, beautifully decorated and has everything we could need! And the view from the floor to ceiling windows is sweet! We overlook the pools (both the Four Seasons and the Mandalay Bay) as well as the southern end of the Strip, an airport and the city view along the 15 Fwy and beyond. This isn't our exact room, but it's pretty much the same:



After we arrived we chilled in the room a bit, freshened up and then headed out for a lil walk along the strip. We didn't end up going to any clubs or stuff like that, so we just grabbed a quick McD's bite and picked up some water and snacks to bring back to the room. (We may be staying in a nice room but we ain't paying more $$$ for snacks we could get for 1/5 the price elsewhere! lol)

This morning we woke up and hit the Buffet over at the Excalibur. We had a nice breakfast which has so far fueled us along the whole day! It's nearly 8 now and I'm barely starting to feel hungry. (Wake up Juan!!! Time to start getting ready to head on out!!!) After we ate, we changed into our pool attire and went down to check out our hotel's private little pool. It was nice and all, but seemed to be more to just lay back in a chair and be waited on. Hmmm...don't know about Juan, but it's not really my thing. hehe So I suggested we just head over to the pools nex to ours, the Mandalay Bay, which we get to use for free as guests of the Four Seasons. They have a big wave pool, a lil river area, a hot jacuzzi, a regular pool, etc. We hit each of them and soaked in some sunshine. Loved it!!! Right after that we went to our hotel's Spa and freshened up in their Sauna area. So nice and relaxing. We felt all refreshed after that.

So now we're here in our room, planning what's up for tonight. I'm about to wake Juan from his trademark nap so we can see where we're heading to next. I want to check out the wax museum too, just for fun, then from there we'll see what's next...

Summer Holiday

Hello there, my sweet lil blog. Missed me?

Haven't had much time these past couple of months to dedicate to my blog entries. But I've tried to stop by every now and then. Such as now. :)

I'm looking forward to this weekend because Juan and I are heading out of town and hitting up Las Vegas! Woohoo! If my math is correct, this should be our third time going there together. We're staying at the Four Seasons this time, definitely moving on up! LOL So that'll be a new experience. From what we read, it looks like I should expect them to treat us like kings (or queens? loL). Sounds nice but I'm not reallly the type that likes to be waited on too much, sometimes I'd much rather be left alone until I call someone for assistance. So we'll see how that goes. The hotel looks really nice and fancy though, so should be a great time! I'm sure we'll be spending lots of time in the pools cooling off from the heat, too. We're also driving out this time, for the first time. We've flown the other times. So it'll be like a road trip, too. I can't wait! We'd been wanting to do a weekend getaway all Summer, especially Juan being on vacation for weeks, but it never panned out...until now!

Just have to make it through the final work day first and then we're off! I've asked to get out at 1:00 tomorrow, to be home no later than 2:00 and then we can head off, hopefully avoiding some traffic. I've packed most of my stuff already, but still can't help feeling like I'm forgetting something or I should pack certain clothes instead of what I did pack. I always hate packing...takes me forever and can be stressful in some way. LOL But once we're on our way, the point of no return, it's relaxing and I love it! The only bad part of it all...that moment when it's time to come back home. hehe

I've been going through some bad sleep patterns. Some days I stay up super late but then pay for it the next day when I can't stay awake at night and knock out super early. So tonight I'll do my best to go to sleep no later than 11. That's an hour away! Grrrr. Guess I should log off this too. I'll watch my next Smallville Season 3 episode and then go to sleep after that, assuming I don't knock out during it! I do that...a lot.

Slow Down!

As I pulled into my usual underground parking spot at work, deep down in the lowest of the lower levels, I saw a guy drive past me in his car heading to wherever his parking spot is. Wait...scratch that...he didn't drive by me...he SPED by me! Our parking lot has a bunch of tight turns and blind spots where it'd be easy to get into an accident. So I try my best to always watch out for cars and drive slow. The speed limit says 5 MPH...but seriously, I doubt anyone really drives THAT slow. I just drive within a reasonable safe speed.

Anyway...back to this man. When I saw him speeding down the small little lane in the parking structure, it just shocked me (and probably annoyed me a bit too). A few minutes later I walk into the elevator to take me upstairs and that same man walks in right behind me. As I looked at him, I couldn't help but laugh a bit on the inside. Why? Because in his hand, all bunched up and held tightly, he had a small Red Bull shot bottle, a "Five Hour Energy" bottle, and three energy bars! Seriously! Just seeing him drive, I figured this guy definitely shouldn't have more energy! :)

Quarantined Weekend

Last Friday I woke up at Juan's and he tells me, "You feel really warm this morning." But I actually felt normal, so I dismissed it as nothing more than my body temperature feeling warm because I had just woken up.

The day at work went by without a hitch. Though I did notice I started to feel a bit less energized as the day grew on. I didn't think much of it, just thought it was my body getting lazy because it knew the weekend was coming. hehe But then when I got into my car to drive home, I really started to feel it. I felt tired, my body was heating up and I felt small headache-like symptoms. Soon as I got home, I was a goner. I had no energy, I just crashed into my bed and wanted to relax. The worse part...I had to cancel plans with Juan to go out and hang with friends that night. I was the one that invited him out and so I felt bad having to cancel, but I was in no condition to be out. :(

I spent that night just resting, and Juan actually ended up coming over later that night after his attempt to go out on his own kinda went downhill too. The next morning, Saturday, I still felt a bit weak but slowly getting better. We just hung out and relaxed in my room, at one point making a quick trip to the mall. While at the mall I started to feel some chills again, so I knew I'd have to just take it easy the rest of the night. Again, couldn't go out. :( So Juan went back to his place and I just stayed in bed to try and get better. That was the whole deal on Sunday as well, I literally spent the whole damn day in bed. Didn't even shower! For me to spend the whole day in bed and not shower....that's really saying something! I don't like wasting my weekends just in bed. And I can never start my days without a good shower. hehe

This morning I woke up feeling mostly better. Just have a lingering cough still, but hopefully that's the last of it and I'll be back to normal soon. Though I'm glad I seem to be getting better, I do hate that my weekend was pretty much ruined by all this. I work through each week looking foward to the weekends, my time to really relax, enjoy my free time, live my life the way I want with my loved ones...and I was stuck in bed. Under quarantine, as Juan jokinly put it. hehe What sucks too is that I knew Juan wanted to go out that weekend, having gone through his first week of Summer break without doing much, so he was looking forward to spending time with me on the weekend. But I was pretty much useless this time around as a source of fun times. :(

So let's all send me some good get-well vibes so I can get back to 100% for this upcoming holiday weekend!

The Big Move

Last Wednesday, as I was driving from work, headed to the gym, I received a text message. It began with the words, "I'm prepared to move in with you..." It was from Juan, of course.

We met exactly 7 1/2 years ago. And in that time we've always been close, from the very first day. Sure we had our little bumps in the road, but everyone usually does. We worked through them all and learned a lot from them, which allowed us both to grow as individuals but more importantly as a couple. Now I feel...WE feel...that we've reached an important point. That point where we truly understand each other and accept each other for who we are.

Over these years the closest we got to living together was when we'd go on vacation and spend days in a hotel together, or when our families would be out of town and we'd have either of our houses to ourselves. (Yes, we both still live with our families...we're Latinos...we have a ticket to do so 'til old age if we choose, right? lol) Often during those moments I would think to myself how it'd be nice if it were always like that, to have a place to call our own. Lately, we've been spending even more time sleeping over at either of our houses, even more so than we used to. I would usually only come over on Thursday nights, a sort of tradition, and then we'd spend more time on the weekend together. But then I think it was when Juan's car was in the shop that I started to sleep over a few more days in the week, to give him rides. And it felt so nice, to be able to see him more often. It got to be tough on those nights where I had to sleep alone in my room at home. I missed him. And on mornings like today, Monday, it's even tougher. Knowing I just had a beautiful weekend with him and now have to go to work and will be alone tonight, it kinda sucks. But I know that we can change that. Of course it's not just about not wanting to be alone at night that we're talking about moving in together. It's about us feeling that we're both ready for that next step.

I'd always felt I would definitely want to move in with him. I've known for a while he's the one. I know that for Juan, it took some searching, mostly within him, and through us, to eventually realize I was the only one for him, and now that he's ready to find a place we can call home together. I'm ready too. It's a big step for us, but I know that together we can make it work and be happy. So we've been thinking about it now, places we might want to live in, what kind of apartments, what furniture we'd take and what we'd buy new, what our price ranges would be, who would do what chores, and so on. We're just starting out. We don't have an exact date set yet. There's no huge rush or deadline. Hopefully before year's end if things work out. I feel it's gonna be a bit of a bigger transition for me, since I've known no other home but the one I live in for all my life. It's my family's home. Soooo many memories there. Plus I still need to have that talk with them and tell them my plans. I know they'll probably be a bit sad, but I hope they'll understand. I know I'll probably be a bit sad as well, having to leave, but in the end I know I'm making the right choice.

I love Juan. He loves me. We're both done searching, we know we're meant for each other....and we're finally ready for the big move. I'm excited!

Love You!

A few weeks back, when I was looking for a new job, I received a call from this one place that I had applied for (not the one I ended up working at now, btw). I wasn't able to pick up, so they left a message. When I was able to call them back, they didn't answer, and so I left a message for them this time. "...I'm returning your call...blah blah blah...interested in the job...blah blah blah..." And as a closer, I was just about to say "Love you!", but fortunately I caught it right in the nick of time and stopped myself from saying it.

Why would I say that!? Well, I'm not really a huge phone guy. Don't really like to talk on the phone much, I'd rather just meet up with people when given the chance. But the person I do talk to daily is my bf. And I usually end my calls or voicemails to him with a heartfelt "Love you!" I guess I was used to ending voicemails to him this way that it almost slipped out when I was leaving the voicemail for that job recruiter. Imagine if I hadn't caught myself in time and DID end up saying that in the voicemail!? I don't know what I would've done if I couldn't erase it. I think I'd be too embarrassed to have called them back. lol What would you have done? :)

Busy Bee

Oh, hello there blog. Miss me lately? :)

Been busy at work actually WORKING. Who knew that some jobs really do require you to work all day and not be online? I never would've guessed! LOL But I think I've fallen into place already and gotten used to my new work routines. One good thing about being busy all the time is my work day goes by quickly for the most part. But since I can't be online much I don't get to do my daily social online updates like I used to. Awwww....I know you all miss it. Right?!?!?! :)

But I'll pop in here and there, on the blog and other sites, whenever I can. This weekend is the Memorial Day weekend so it's a 3 day weekend. Woohoo! Been enjoying it by relaxing. We went out Friday to our usual, Circus, and after that just been chilling at my house. We watched two DVDs Juan picked yesterday (Notorious and Bride Wars), hit the gym and also had a nice dinner at our favorite Farmer Boys. Today we've just been relaxing, might head to the movies later (Terminator Salvation, perhaps). So I've definitely been enjoying the kickback weekend.

I'm finally at a nice, peaceful point again. Work is going well, three weeks into it. I've gotten the hang of most things now while still learning a few stuff along the way. The slightly longer commute on the drive home kinda sucks at times, but oh well. I'm just so grateful I was able to find a good job so quickly in these tough times. Maybe I'll allow myself to splurge just a little soon. I have been thinking about getting a TiVo. :) We'll see.

First Week

The first week at the new job went pretty well. Yeah, I was nervous, especially on the very first day, but little by little I'm learning my new responsibilities and getting used to the changes (new location, slightly longer commute, new people, etc.). I think I've already got everyone's names down, which isn't too difficult this time since we're only about 20 or so people there in the office. Everyone's been pretty cool and friendly, so that's always a big plus. Even as the week ended, I still felt a bit lost at times, trying to figure a few things out, but I know that's normal with any new job. Overall, it was a good start...for me, at least...I hope my bosses and co-workers think so as well. There were a lot of new things I needed to learn/remember, so it just takes me some getting used to. From what I've heard, it took my coworkers a while too...so at least knowing that helps me feel more confident that it's not just me. :)

Right now I'm just chilling at Juan's, enjoying this Sunday. The weekend's gone by way too fast, as is always the case. But I do my best to enjoy ever second of it. Hopefully this coming week goes just as well, if not better, and quicker too. Hopefully the nervous feelings I felt last week aren't around as much now that I have a few days under my belt.

I do feel I'm very lucky to have someone, Juan, that can help calm me down and comfort me and encourage me. There are times when I just tend to overthink things and make myself freak out too much for no reason. He was really helpful in making me feel calm and relax and remember to just take a deep breath and do my best. So if you read this, thank you!

Saturday Quickie

It's three o'clock on this Saturday. I'm sitting here waiting as Juan gets his haircut and then we're going to the gym and a friend's birthday night later on. As of this past Thursday I've technically been between jobs...my last day at my now 'old' job has come and gone and now I start at a new place on Monday morning. Must admit I'm definitely nervous...not that I think I will do bad or anything, just the whole new job, new responsibilities to learn and new people to meet can make me somewhat anxious and nervous. Soon enough I know I'll settle in and get used to the new work routine. It all just takes time. For now just relaxing and enjoying my weekend. We went to see the X-Men Origins: Wolverine movie last night and I really enjoyed it...so go check it out!

Ok enough blogging for now...takes so long doing this from the mobile browser. lol

Last (full) Day At Work

It's finally arrived. My final full day working here. I can't believe it's been almost six years since I started here! Seems like so much has happened since then. Many people have come and gone from this company. We started out doing great, even opening a brand new store, things looked good. But you can never be too sure about the future of things, especially when it comes to businesses. Overall, it's been a nice run for me here. Might not have been the most glamorous job, but I made the best of it. I did my best and met/exceeded expectations on the job. I was able to learn about new music and movies that I might not have discovered otherwise. I was able to work with some cool people (despite my often keeping more to myself lol). And of course, can't forget the free lunches and musical guests we'd often have here in the office! How many companies will give you that! I was so fortunate to have been able to see many artists perform for us, up close and personal, in such a small intimate setting.

So yeah, I'll miss this place. And not just me, but many of the people that loved shopping at our stores, or even just browsing around and hanging out, which in itself could be fun. The future of the brick and mortar music store is uncertain. I hope that down the road it still remains, in one way or another, because there's just something about going to a store on a new release day and seeing what's out that can't be replaced by some clicks and scrolls on a web site.

Tomorrow is my official last day. I'm guessing I probably just come in for part of the day until I get my official paperwork, then I should be free to go. I don't deal with goodbyes so well. Always feels really awkward to me for some reason. I never know what to say. But at least I won't be the only one leaving tomorrow, so it's not like I'll stand out too much.

We have a little pizza lunch gathering today in one of the rooms here, I believe just for our dept, about a dozen or so people. Should be nice. A little awkward maybe since it's a celebration on the last full day for some of us. So it's a nice sentiment, but I just never really know what to say to people. Also, since I already have a job lined up, I feel a bit bad bringing it up to others that may not be so fortunate yet.

So we'll see how this day goes. Doing some small final cleaning up of my desk (and computer desktop), though I already did most of it little by little since I found out I had two months left back in February. There's really nothing much left for me to do, even in terms of actual work. It's all a matter of waiting now.

One door is closing while I head on to the next . . .

(Oh and about the image that accompanies this post...it's sort of an inside joke between Juan & I. hehe)

Dark Angel Summer

I got home this past Monday to a hot and stuffy room. I opened up the window and blinds to let some fresh air in. Being in that room, lights off and feeling hot, reminded me so much of the summer days. More specifically it reminded me of last summer, when I'd come home after work and relax in my room, a few clothes shed, cold drink at my side, fan running and watching my DVDs. That was the "Dark Angel summer." hehe I watched all my DVDs for that show during those hot summer nights when I didn't feel like doing much. (This was before I joined the gym.) Those were some nice relaxing times! :)

[ I originally wrote this post through my cell phone. Turns out that because my phone sends long texts as seperate parts, it was posted as seperate entries as well. lol So now I know, from now on, to keep my text message posts short & sweet. lol]

Texting Test

I think I'm finally able to text in my blog posts on my cheap little cell phone. This is a test. If you can see this post then it worked! Yay!

Two More Weeks

Where did this week go!? Despite having some slow days, the week overall seemed to go by fast. It's already Thursday afternoon...my "Friday" for this work week! I decided to use one final "personal day" off from work tomorrow. I don't have any solid plans set up yet, but I just really wanted to take a day. Plus, the workload has been pretty light lately, which is understandable considering our company is closing soon. Just two more weeks from today until my last day here! Scary! I've been able to relax a bit more lately now that I don't have to worry about the job hunting, which is good. But I know that as soon as that weekend comes, right before I start my new job, I'll probably be feeling a bit of stress. But it's the "good stress"! I'm the type of person that tends to overthink things, overplan and maybe worry a bit too much, especially if it's a significant change in my life like this new job! I get so used to my daily, weekly, monthly and yearly routines
...that whenever something new gets thrown into the mix, I need time to fully adjust. I'm sure that as long as I put my all into this new job, I should be fine. I know I'm a capable person, a quick learner and good problem solver. Those qualities weren't on my resumes just for filler, ya know! :)


I know that some of my coworkers still don't have a new job lined up, so I feel bad for them. I was having a tough time getting "noticed" by employers, too. Seems like now, more than ever, it really is about who you know...connections...when it comes to looking for a job. I just hope that eventually everyone is able to find something new. These are all good people. Eventhough I might not have always been the social type when it comes to work, I'll still miss seeing all these familiar friendly faces. Lately I find myself thinking back to the last almost six years I've been here. The people that have come and gone, the many fun in-office performances, the cool music I got to discover, the company picnics, the promo giveaways. Good times! It's been such a fun, casual work environment, and I loved that. I think I was spoiled in some ways, because chances are I probably will never find another workplace like this. :)

I'm glad my weekend is almost here. As I mentioned, I don't have any real plans yet, but I'm sure we'll figure something out. Last weekend was fun! It was Juan's 29th birthday weekend. So on Friday we went out to Circus and had a great time with some friends. The following afternoon we headed out to the Hollywood area, for a change. We rarely go out there. We hit the gym, visited the Walk of Fame area, had a nice dinner at CPK and then did some shopping at the Target. It was fun hanging out in that Walk of Fame area. We dressed up a bit more than we normally would and were taking pictures, just like the tourists. And just like the tourists, we even got harrassed by one of the "costumed people" there on the sidewalk. Some Charlie Chaplin guy pretty much threw himself into one of our photos and then took of his hat and asked for "a buck or two." Just to get rid of him, I threw in a buck. Then he looks at me with those beedy little eyes and holds up two fingers, to tell me he wants $2. Bastard! You said "a buck or two"...not "has to be two"! Ugggh. I just threw it in so he'd leave. lol So yeah...watch out for 'em. :)

That night, as we were paying at the Target store, I noticed two guys that were in a checkout line next to ours. They were holding a big bag of dog food and a big pack of toilet paper, among other things. As they got closer to us (one aisle beside us) I made brief eye contact with one of them. As soon as I saw those very distinguishable eyes and facial features, I knew I recognized him. Or rather, I knew he looked like someone. I took out my cell phone and typed into it, "kyle xy behind you", then showed it to Juan. Had I said it was Matt Dallas, he wouldn't know who I was talking about, that's why I went with his character's name instead. lol He turned around and then confirmed that it was him. At that moment I got excited. Up til then I just figured it looked like him but couldn't be him, because I never recognize people! A couple minutes later Juan overheard him say a few words and then gave me final confirmation that it really was him, because he recognized the voice from the TV show. I would've loved to be able to go up to him, say how much I liked his show (which I genuinely did, having watched it from day one til the final episode), and maybe even taken a picture. We'd left the brand new camera I'd picked out for Juan's birthday in the car, but even just a cell cam pic would've been nice. But Matt was paying for his stuff, doing his shopping, we thought it'd be too rude to bug him at that point. Had he just been walking down a aisle in the store and we bumped into each other...then maybe. It was fun seeing a celebrity I like though. I wonder what I'd do if I ever saw Sarah Michelle Gellar, my Buffy!

Oh and I finally got to see Slumdog Millionaire on Sunday. We watched it together in the morning, after having an early lunch, before hitting the gym. It really lived up to it's hype, such a good movie! And I loved the music. Might have to look into the soundtrack. :)

F My Life

We all have days where things just don't go our way. Something crappy, embarrassing, awkward or just plain strange happens to us. Often we try to just forget about those moments and move on. But why forget, when you can save them forever over at fmylife.com!? :)

I don't know what percentage of the entries on that site are real, but it doesn't matter. Some of them are quite funny! I spent a good few minutes reading through a bunch of them. If anything, next time you have a bad moment, you can just look at some of those entries and say, "could've been worse!"

Employed (Again)

Heard the good news?! I got a new job! I finally feel like a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders!

Ever since that day in January, the Friday when half of the offices department's were laid off, shortly after we returned from our fun Vancouver trip, I've been a bit stressed and worried about what would happen next. Eventually, toward the end of February it became official that our company was going to be closing. They gave me a 2 month notice, with my last day to be at the end of April. That gave me at least two months to look for a new job. So all of March I was feeling especially nervous and stressed. The job market is tough right now. Seems like for every job opening there are hundreds of people applying! When I went on a job interview a few days ago, they literally had several interviews all going on at the same time. The hiring lady would go from person to person, checking up on each of us as we were doing different parts of the initial testing/screening processes.

Not knowing what my job future held also forced me to go on a tight budget. All my "wants" would have to be put on hold and I only allowed myself to purchase any "needs". Do you know how tough it was for me to see a new release DVD I really wanted (for example, Wonder Woman) and have to just walk away from it. Now I know what an addiction feels like. "Just say NO to DVDs." lol I also had to limit my outings a bit due to the money thing, but also because I was often feeling a bit bummed about the job thing and not really in much of a party mood. The whole car incident with Juan allowed me to spend more time at his place, which was actually a nice thing for me. Being with him, I was more relaxed, comfortable, happy and just able to forget my worries for those moments. And all this also made me a bit more distant from people. Because I wasn't going online as much as I used to (so I could use that time to focus on job hunts) and I wasn't really going out as much.

But now that I have a new job lined up, I feel so much more relieved! It's like a huge dark nagging cloud over my head has been whisked away! Sure, I know I'll be nervous once I start my new job in May. I always get a bit nervous during these types of big changes in my life. But I also know that eventually I'll settle in, get the hang of it, and then do great at the new place! For now, I can breathe again. I can feel more relaxed. I can allow myself a few treats (but not TOO much...shouldn't count all my chickens before they fully hatched hehe). I can finally feel some sense of calmness and normalcy again. There are a few other things I need to get to in my life, personal matters, but my main worry has been cleared for now.

And major thanks to you, Juan, for helping me get through this. Your support and encouragement meant a lot to me! You helped keep me together so I wouldn't lose my focus, and I really appreciate it!

Ride Share Bonding

It's kind of funny how bad things can often work out better than you imagined. All it takes is a little positive thinking and looking at life through the bright side of it all. It's going on almost three weeks now since the weekend of our "(mini)series of unfortunate events." If you don't know what I'm talking about, in a nutshell: my car was broken into, some of our stuff was stolen, and Juan's car was crashed into (while parked) by a drunk driver the very next day. Since then we've replaced the things that were taken and his car has been in the shop, it will hopefully be ready at some point in the coming couple of weeks.

Not having a car, for someone who works full time and often has personal errands to run, can be quite a burden. But being the supportive couple that we are, we worked it out so that on the weekends we use my car to run our errands and during the week on certain days I'll give him a ride to/from work and on others he carpools with his sister. He's also borrowed my car one day, when he to drive during the work day, so I was dropped off and picked up from work...which was qutie nice! hehe In retun for my helping him out, he's been treating me to a few lunches when we go out or helping me out by preparing my lunches for work when I spend the night.

We've even been going to the gym together a few days after work during the week, which we normally wouldn't do since he'd usually go earlier in the evening and I would go later in the evening. The cool thing is that I've still managed to do the things I would normally do, without really having to drive any more than usual. I even still watch my TV shows. I just record them on his DVR and watch them the following morning as he's getting ready. But my favorite part is that I've gotten to spend a lot more time with him lately, and it's been so nice. :) Especially going through job hunts and interviews, it's nice to be able to meet with him on some days to help calm my nerves and talk about what's been going on in the "hunt."

So yeah, while it does suck about his car having to be in the shop for so long, we're just looking at the bright side of it all. Nobody was hurt and as a result we've been having fun spending more time together during the week. Once the dust settles and we're back to some sort of old routine again, I'm really going to miss those ridesharing mornings & evenings! :) And hey, I'm even going to miss the Oprah episodes I've joined him in watching at the end of the day! hehe

Andy Hallett, R.I.P.

Sad day in the Whedonverse. Andy Hallett, who played the flashy, loveable, singing demon, Lorne, on the Buffy The Vampire Slayer spinoff, Angel, has passed away. :(

Via E! Online:

Andy Hallett, who starred as Lorne ("the Host") on the TV series Angel, died of heart failure last night [March 29th] at age 33, according to his longtime agent and friend Pat Brady. The actor passed away at Cedars-Sinai Hospital after a five-year battle with heart disease, with his father Dave Hallett by his side.

Hallett, from the Cape Cod village of Osterville, Mass., appeared on more than 70 episodes of the Buffy the Vampire Slayer spinoff, Angel, between 2000 and 2004. The accomplished actor was also a musician and sang two songs ("Lady Marmalade" and "It's Not Easy Being Green") on the Angel: Live Fast, Die Never soundtrack, released in 2005.

Andy has spent his post-Angel years working on his music career, playing shows around the country. He had been admitted to the hospital three or four times in the past few years for his heart condition, according to Pat.

The Secret Ingredient Is...

When is a sandwich not JUST a sandwich? When it's made with the secret ingredient, of course. What is it? Haven't you heard? The secret ingredient is...LOVE. :)

A couple summers ago, we went to the beach one day with a few of our friends, and Juan & I were in charge of taking some sandwiches and a few drinks in a cooler. We prepared the sandwiches beforehand, placing each in an individual sandwich bag. As we were eating them on the beach, they told us the sandwiches were good. Of course, we hadn't really done anything extra special to them, just the typical ingredients (meat, cheese, tomatoes, etc.). But Juan, in response to the compliments on our sandwiches, then said, "The secret ingredient is love." :) So that got a good little laugh. hehe

Ever since then, there've been several instances when a situation comes up that reminds me of that phrase. And right now, as I type this, I'm actually having a sandwich for lunch. It was one that Juan prepared for me this morning. I spent the night at his place, to give him a ride this morning, and so he was nice enough to prepare me a lunch so I don't have to buy one (since I'm trying to save). He even included some chips and a yogurt for desert. :) I know it's just your typical type of sandwich that I'm eating, but it actually does taste better to me. Why? Because of the secret ingredient of course...

Jay Brannan Can't Have It All

So, my good close friend *, Jay Brannan, has come out with a new music video. It's for his song, "Can't Have It All". I just saw it right now for the first time and I really love it. I've loved the song and it's cool to see a video to it now. Whenever I hear the song it takes me back to seeing him perform live, because I believe it might've been the one he actually opened the night with the last time I went to see him. :) So here it is...with lyrics right after...



(* by "good close friend" I mean in my imagination lol)

CAN'T HAVE IT ALL
music and lyrics by Jay Brannan

applying moisturizer in the microwave window
for the tenth time, he shouldve called me an hour ago
would he be here with flowers if i lived in arizona?

they say theres no love left in the big cities, its kinda true
i guess youll find me coming soon to a small town near you
ill sell my guitar so i can by myself a tractor

fuck this, this cant be my life
i moisturized ten times tonight
why cant i sit down and write,
bring this question to light?

chorus
do you want a lover, or do you want a life?
one hand or the other, the butter or the bread knife?
do you choose winter, spring, summer, or fall?
its driving me crazy that i cant have it all

if these walls could talk, theyd probably cry out for mercy
til im outlined in chalk, ill be romantically thirsty
so i drink and drink from the proverbial time sink

fuck this, this cant be my life
tears flowing in full force tonight
why cant i sit down and write,
bring this question to light?

chorus

do we hold the future, or does it come in peace?
and if its in my hands, are you sure it should be in brittle hands like these?
life, love, and the pursuit of all the things they promised me
can i have all of the above? are the best things in life truly free?

chorus

© 2008 great depression publishing

For full HQ version visit: www.youtube.com/watch?v=6AV5XzKjz2Y

More Jay Brannan Videos: www.youtube.com/user/jaybrannan

His Official Page: www.jaybranan.com

I Saw TRS' Alex

I think I just saw Alex Albrecht, from The Totally Rad Show & Diggnation, two of my favorite podcasts! If you have no idea who he is or what the podcasts are about, then be sure to check them out. Just click on their names in the previous sentences. And if you've no idea what a podcast is...shame, shame, shame on you!

Anyhow, I saw him about half an hour ago, he was in front of me at the ATM while I waited patiently behind him for my turn. I didn't recognize him at first, until I really paid attention and even then I was only about 80% sure it could be him. I usually SUCK at recognizing people. So I just stood there until he was done and walked right past me on his way back to his car in the parking lot. As I was walking back to my car a few minutes later (to get some envelopes that I needed to drop in the mail box), I saw him driving away in a black BMW. At that point I was then about 99% sure it was him, since I remembered him discussing his new car at some point in the podcasts.

So yeah, that was my own little celebrity sighting. Or...would he be considered a full-on celebrity? Well, to me and his fans & followers I'm sure he is. hehe Also, I'm pretty sure I've probably seen a bunch of other actors or otherwise famous people walking past me here in L.A., especially where I currently work since the SAG offices are here, but I just never notice them. A simple hat or sunglasses is often enough to sneak past me. hehe But it was actually quite cool seeing Alex, especially since The Totally Rad Show (TRS) is my favorite podcast! Listening to Alex, Dan & Jeff on that show brings back so many memories of my youth, plus they cover a lot of the entertainment stuff that I'm into.

I Want: Buffy Maquettes

What I wouldn't give to be able to have these three Buffy "tooned up" maquettes (which I believe is just a fancy french word for a small model/sculpture). Buffy, Glory & Evil Willow. Love it! But my tight budget days continue so can't do! Will just have to be happy looking at the pretty pictures. hehe Still...at about over $80 or so each, I don't think I'd be getting them even if I could afford to spend the money! Just a bit too much for me, the casual collector. :)

Quick Thoughts

I haven't blogged as much these past few days. Funny thing is, I've actually had a lot on my mind that I'd normally want to write down. But for now, I think it's best I just focus (or try my best to) on other more important things. Such as...you know...where I'll be working at in the near future! :-/

I was thinking back this morning to what I'd call "happier times." January of 2008, in particular, when we took a trip to Madrid. There really weren't many things to worry about at the time for both of us, if I remember correctly. So it was a good feeling. Peaceful. And a fun time going on a beautiful and forever memorable trip. These days, I can still have fun if I want, but I can never shake off that nagging reminder in the back of my mind that things are topsy turvy right now. And not just for me personally, but for many people out there, both here in the U.S. and abroad.

We all just keep on going, living life, taking those "can't help but smile" moments as we can get them. In the end, I think what matters most are the people you love. And those are truly the ones that'll always be around, no matter what the times may be like. A warm embrace, a gentle kiss, a hand to hold...things that'll never cost you a penny from the special people in your life.

I may take little breaks from this blog in the coming weeks. But hopefully soon I can get back to my random silliness. :)

Housewife

I was listening to my iPod at work, and Jay Brannan's song "Housewife" came on. As I listened to the lyrics...

"...I wanna be a housewife,
what's so wrong with that?
I wanna be a housewife, yeah,
and that's just where I'm at..."

...I couldn't help but wonder, seriously, would that be so bad? To be a housewife, that is. To stay home, take care of the house, do the laundry, run grocery errands and have a nice dinner waiting for my love to return from work? Honestly, I'm starting to think I'd quite like that.

*Sigh*

Two Month Notice

It's finally starting to hit me, the reality of it all. I am losing my current job in two months. :( It was something that was pretty much coming for a while now, but there was never an end date. Now that there is, it's much more scarier. I guess I should try and see the positive side of it, that at least I'm being given a decent amount of notice so I can try to plan accordingly. Still, doesn't make it any easier knowing that I have to look for a new job during a time when jobs seem to be more and more scarce.

We found out about all this last Friday. We got the final word at an office meeting Friday afternoon. I told myself that this weekend would just be for me to relax, have a nice time with my bf and friends, forget all my worries and just let myself have a nice time. And I succeeded. I did have a great weekend. But of course, as usual, it went by too fast. Now I'm back at work, Monday morning. I'm grateful to have a job for two more months at least, but it still doesn't make it any easier having to come back to work after a nice weekend.

So now it's time to start getting serious about planning for what's to come. Time to start brushing up those resumes, putting my name, my experience and my skills out there, hoping that somebody will take notice.

Budgets Suck!

With all the stuff that's been going on lately, it's no surprise that many people have been trying to prioritize their spending. Going on budgets, saving money, cancelling subscriptions to things they really don't need...and so on.

I have also been trying my best to cut down spending. I'm not going all out and saving every penny, though. But I have been trying to cut back on a few things. Specifically...my love for collecting DVDs. hehe Though, truth be told, there haven't been any big releases in the past few weeks that I want really bad. So that's helped me be strong and not buy them. lol And I have tons of DVDs already to keep me entertained. The past couple weeks I've been watching the "24" DVDs (season 5). I'm almost done with it and then I'll move on to the sixth season, which fortunately I already own. :)

This coming Tuesday though...DC Animation's latest DVD comes out! As much as I love Marvel, DC's animated DVDs have, in my opinion, surpassed Marvel's animated DVDs by quite a lot! So when the "Wonder Woman" animated DVD movie comes out next Tuesday, March 3, I don't think I can resist! Hell, after the bad news we got at work this week, I deserve a little treat! ;)

Joss Whedon Q&A

Via TV Guide: http://www.tvguide.com/News/VIDEO-Whedon-Gellar-1003385.aspx

Listen up children, Papa Whedon has a few things to say!

Tough Times Still

A little over a month ago, on a gloomy Friday, we had some pretty significant layoffs here at the office, and the announcement that two more of our store locations were going to be closing down. Sad times indeed. Fortunately, my job was spared and I was asked to stay on board. A couple of days after that, especially the Monday back to work, I was in this strange mood at work. I mean, who here wasn't!? The office was noticeably emptier and the worker's morale wasn't exactly at it's highest. I told myself I would focus more on looking around for new jobs while I'm still here. But then something happened.

I started to let myself slip back into routine. I started to forget...no, wait...more like "ignore"...the fact that things really aren't going good for us. I just focused on my daily tasks, clocked in and out, then went home and did my own stuff that makes me happy, have fun or just relax. Part of this was just me wanting to "feel" better about the unavoidable event that seems to be getting closer and closer by the day: the end of our company. Pessimist much? Not really. I'm usually a very optimistic person. But I've got to be realistic here. Things have been slowly going down for us a long while now. As one of my coworkers put it, regarding those who were spared their jobs last January, "You're only delaying the inevitable."

I just wanted to feel happy. I started the year off with an awesome week's vacation and had a blast. I would've loved that type of feeling, or some resemblance of it at the very least, to last a while longer. But who am I kidding? I need to remember that things aren't going well for a lot of us. :( Some times I don't even know how this all happened. I know it's been a long time coming, but to me it seems like it all just suddenly hit us recently. Maybe it's because every day I hear more and more about people closing down stores...and then it hit us, too.

Tomorrow, we're having an office meeting with our big boss. He sent an email telling us that "by now you might've heard" so and so. Thing is, I hadn't heard a word. I had to google it! Turns out...we're closing two MORE stores. So that'll officially leave 3 stores that will still be on "open" status. But I know it's only a matter of time. :(

TV Theme Songs

They just don't make TV theme songs like they used to! Some shows barely even have a theme song at all now. Back then I think the popular shows were the half hour, mostly family friendly sitcoms. So they were perfect for the catchy theme song to get the mood going. Now, the hit shows tend to be about the law, forensics, medicine and the supernatural. They don't exactly welcome a fun, upbeat and catchy sing-a-long theme song. Hell, LOST's theme is just a quick eerie sound. lol But let's take a little trip down memory lane with the help of Stewie and Brian Griffin...



What was your favorite theme song growing up?

HEROES 3.17: "Cold Wars"

OK, as usual, SPOILERS SPOILERS AND SPOILERS AHEAD for those of you that aren't caught up to the newest episode. You have been warned. :)


I'm on lunch break right now and it's almost over, so I don't have much time. I'll make it quick and simple, just touch on a few things I wanted to talk about.

Noah Bennet - I am so glad that he's still working for the good guys! His actions and methods are always so complicated and it's often hard to tell exactly where he stands. Good or evil? But I love that we finally saw that his involvement with the hunter guy and Nathan is all part of his & Angela Petrelli's team up to try and bring this whole "catch & cage 'em" thing to an end. I know they (Noah & Angela) still believe that some of these people do need to be contained, but not all of them. So I'm just glad he's still a good guy! Now if only little Claire Bear would try and keep out of his way so she doesn't screw the plan up. lol

Daphne - I knew it! I knew our little Blondie Nemesis Speedster couldn't be dead! On shows like these, I always figure that if they don't show us proof beyond doubt that someone is dead, then there's always the chance they never died to begin with. Sure, she got shot a few times. But even us regular non-superpowered people have survived gunshots before. Still, there is one thing I didn't like. Her name in the credits! That kind of ruins the surprise for anyone that really thought she was dead...to see her name pop up in the opening credits. Yes, I know...it's part of some contractual obligations or whatnot...but still. Can't we make exceptions when it's a surprise character making a return or something to that effect. I really think that it kind of kills the excitement a bit when you are already expecting to see the person pop up. But oh well...I don't run the industry. But someday!

Parkman - Wow, "kill" his girl and you bring out the bad ass in him! He's always been more of a softer guy, didn't want to hurt people and eventually didn't even want to use his powers, even though he knew it could help him achieve some life goals. But it was kinda refreshing to see him a bit more tougher on these people that have been making his life a living hell. Those last few paintings he did at the end though, I'll have to look them up or study them closer 'cause I wasn't too sure what they were.

Overall, another episode I enjoyed. Can't wait for more!

Dollhouse: The Target

I finally got around to watching the second episode of Dollhouse, "The Target." I felt that the pilot left me a bit...what's the word...unsatisfied, perhaps? I had expectations of the type of show I'd expect from anything that has Whedon's name attached to it. Granted, I didn't think the pilot sucked. Not by a long shot. It was just that by comparison to Buffy, Angel, Firefly and Doctor Horrible...I was expecting more of the same type of elements, specifically the witty dialogue and humor blended into the drama and action. Here, with Dollhouse, we were given a somewhat more serious tone. So I needed to get used to that.

Now, having watched the second episode, Dollhouse is growing on me a lot more. I really enjoyed this episode and loved the mysteries that are starting to be presented regarding Echo's past(s), the "dollhouse" itself and the various people after them, including the mysterious Alpha. Once I let go of my preconceived notions of what a Whedon project should look and feel like, I was able to enjoy this show more. I just hope others continue to do so as well. I'd love to see where they can take this show beyond the initial episode orders. So who's gonna keep watching with me!?!? Do it! :)

Oscars 2009

So yesterday was the big Oscar Sunday. Having sat through the whole 3+ hours broadcast, I feel it is my duty, as a random blogger among the thousands and millions of other blogs out there, to post my own review of the Oscars. So here goes...

Let's see. It was long. Kind of slow. Didn't care much for those "this is why you are awesome" speeches given by the groups of past Oscar winners to each of the big award nominees. There was singing & dancing. Lots of it. Kinda dug the one with the Indian music & John Legend. The Musicals medley was OK too. The opening one...was just...I don't know. Heath won, happy for that. Milk & Sean Penn won some too...awesome acceptance speeches. I think Wall-E got something too. Aside from that, I didn't really see the other films. Oh and there was some lady that reminded me of Belle (from Disney's Beauty & The Beast) in her yellow dress...that is, if she had aged for many years and never took off that yellow dress. If you saw the show...you must know who I mean. And Hugh Jackman as host...don't have an opinion either way. He's Wolverine, he's hot, he can sing and act...kudos to you, sir!

I honestly only watched it because I was hanging out with Juan & some of our friends. :) Otherwise I'd be watching my 24 DVDs at home instead and just catch any of the "best of" moments on YouTube if I felt so inclined.

So how's that for a deep, insightful review?

25 Random Things About Me

Oh, Facebook! Me, being a person that doesn't like to be left out of what's "hot" in the virtual world...here, for you reading (dis)pleasure, I present my 25RTAM. In no particular order...

1 - When eating out, I usually prefer to stick to my own plate and don't always offer up a taste of my food to others...not even my bf. And no, I'm not greedy! It's just a (bad?) habit.
2 - In junior high, I tripped over someone that fell in front of me while jogging during P.E. I scrapped my elbows and it left a bad mark on one of them that to this day I hate.
3 - I rarely sleep naked. I saw this video long ago on America's Funniest Home Videos, where a woman is filming her baby and then an earthquake strikes and the dad comes running out of a room scared & naked. I live in an earthquake prone city! 'Nuff said. :)
4 - I can be a picky eater. I especially don't like most sea food and asian food, or just about any food with a weird smell, look or texture...which can make me a tough person to have dinner with.
5 - The extent of my drug experience is limited to just a couple of bites from a bud brownie.
6 - I've been in love with the same person for more than seven years, yet still get random innocent office crushes.
7 - From my 28th birthday (Nov 2007) through today, I've lost a total of 30lbs. Started with a change in eating habits and then joined the gym last summer.
8 - Every Thursday night I sleep over at my bf's house. It's become a sort of work week tradition.
9 - I used to hate eating brocoli with the passion of a thousand burning suns! Now, I don't mind it. My favorite is from the side salads at Chick-Fil-A.
10 - I don't hold grudges or stay mad for long. I don't think I even have any enemies.
11 - I stand on the "for" side on the "having kids" debate. So much so that I often have dreams where I have a child, usually a beautiful little girl.
12 - I'm not one that follows politics, sports and word news that closely. When they come up in conversation, I just smile and nod politely.
13 - I would love to have a bromance. A straight male friend to just hang out with. Don't get me wrong though...still got nothing but love for all my gay amigos! lol
14 - When I was younger I always lost touch with friends, which is probably one reason why I cherish my friends a lot now and do my best to always keep in touch.
15 - I'm bad at song lyrics, but I can sing along to many classic Disney songs...and damn proud of it! lol
16 - I have no fashion sense and dread having to shop for clothes, which explains a lot if you were to see how I dress for work.
17 - Kinda...randomly...been playing with the thought of whether I'd be willing to get a tattoo some day. What of? Not sure.
18 - I tend to have a bad memory. Can't always remember names, faces, occurences or things that were said in general. Don't take it personally!
19 - The scent from a freshly cut lemon is, thus far, the only food item that can literally make my mouth water.
20 - I have a "thing" for accents. I love them! Especially European accents (British, Spanish, Irish, etc.).
21 - I have been to a nude beach before...and yes, as a participant.
22 - Buffy The Vampire Slayer is my all time favorite show. AS IF you all didn't already know that one.
23 - I sometimes wish I could shorten my arms a bit. Shopping for long sleeve shirts sucks!
24 - What I often can't bring myself to say to people verbally, I'll end up writing in novel-like length.
25 - Making other people smile, laugh, feel good or just be happy brings me more joy than you know. I want all my friends, family and my loved one to be happy.

Non Ti Prometto Niente

Directions:
1. Put your iPod on shuffle
2. Put the answer to the title of the song to each answer
3. No Matter how stupid it is pass it on
FUN!!!

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Song: "Change Your Mind" - All-American Rejects
Comment: In other words...it's NOT okay!

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Song: "Silence With The Moon" - Quetzal
Comment: Yep...there can be a lot of silence with me. Moon, sun & everything in between. Just means I'm having non-stop conversations in my head. lol

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Song: "Hard To Beat" - Hard-Fi
Comment: Lies! I'm a pacifist...don't wanna beat anyone!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Song: "American Terrorist" - Lupe Fiasco
Comment: Of all possible song titles for this question...I get this one!? LOL

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Song: "Amame" - Juanes
Comment: Awww. I love to be loved. Got plenty of love for others, too.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Song: "Una Noche Mas" - Jennifer Lopez
Comment: What can I say? Friends just can't get enough of me. lol

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Song: "Todo Lo Hago Mal" - El Canto Del Loco
Comment: I guess I do think about what I might've done wrong, but for the most part I'm happy with my choices.

WHAT IS 2+2?
Song: "El Cantinero" - Jose Alfredo Jimenez
Comment: El cantinero is probably the only one that'd know what 2+2 is in a bar full of borrachos!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Song: "Trick Me" - Kelis
Comment: Trick me once, shame on you. Trick me twice....and umm....I won't be tricked again!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Song: "I Miss You So Much" - TLC
Comment: Oh, how I've had those moments. Such a sad song. But my life story? Hardly.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Song: "Self Esteem" - The Offspring
Comment: We all want some self esteem when we grow up. (Riches would help with that, too!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE A PERSON YOU LIKE?
Song: "One Night Man" - Ricky Martin
Comment: I swear this was a random song! I'm not the one-night-stands type. lol

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Song: "Goodbye" - The Coral
Comment: Are they secretly trying to get rid of me or something?

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Song: "Streetcorner Symphony" - Rob Thomas
Comment: This is actually a nice, feel good, come together type of song. Not sure if it'd make a good wedding song though.

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Song: "Hoy Llueve, Hoy Duele" - Alejandro Sanz
Comment: How fitting a song title.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Song: "Crying Shame" - Jack Johnson
Comment: Hmmm, I don't tend to do much that brings me shame.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Song: "La Marcha Del Golazo Solitario" - Los Fabulosos Cadilacs
Comment: Not exactly sure how to take this one. I'm a good soccer player?

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Song: "Follow Me" - Craig David
Comment: I'd much rather you not follow me, but instead stand side by side and we'll go together. :)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Song: "Autumn" - Paolo Nutini
Comment: At one point, as a kid, Autumn meant the end of summer vacation and back to school....so yeah, it probably was the worst thing to happen. lol

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Song: "Better Days (And The Bottom Drops Out)" - Citizen King
Comment: "I've seen better days", the song says. If I'm going to die, I'd certainly say so.

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Song: "Santiago" - Ozomatli
Comment: I don't remember a Santiago. Unless I was super drunk??? lol

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Song: "Home" - Jay Brannan
Comment: My home is the source of many funny moments, gotta agree with that.

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Song: "The Horror Of Our Love" - Ludo
Comment: Hell, if love was full of horror it'd definitely make me cry.

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Song: "Dance 2night" - Madonna
Comment: I'll definitely dance with joy if I get married.

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Song: "Love It All" - The Kooks
Comment: Love? Scare me? Ha! Nevah!

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Song: "For Those I Love" - Darude
Comment: Those I love...BETTER at least like me. lol

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Song: "Open Ur Mind" - Jason Nevins
Comment: I'd definitely want to make people through history more open minded.

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Song: "This Velvet Glove" - Red Hot Chillie Peppers
Comment: I knew I should've gone with the fleece glove instead! hehe

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Song: "Non Ti Prometto Niente" - Eros Ramazzotti
Comment: Translated, I believe means "I promise you nothing".

P.S. BONUS TRACK (OF YOUR LIFE)
Song: "Crazy In Love" - Beyonce
Comment: And proud of it!

Back In My Day

I've noticed that now, more and more, I'm often comparing my chilhood to those of "kids these days." You know, how things were "back in my day".

Kids these days think Wikipedia is a reliable source for school research at the click of a mouse. Back in my day, I used to have to walk several blocks to the library, then go through catalogs and stacks of books to get the information I needed.

Kids these days don't know what good television is. Back in my day, we had the TGIF lineup, Disney afternoon and actual good Saturday morning cartoons.

Kids these days think they need a cell phone while in school. Back in my day, we were happy enough having these things called calculators!

And so on...

Damn...if this isn't one of the early signs that I may be getting old, then I don't know what is. LOL But fuck it...I feel young and a kid at heart and that's all that matters. The grey hairs can suck it! Right!?

X-Men Anime

I loved watching the X-Men animated series on FOX during the 90's, always looked forward to the new episodes on Saturday mornings. Recently I found out they had alternate opening theme songs and sequences for the Japanese translations of the show. Via wikipedia:

The opening intro was replaced with a new, Japanese-animated segment of the characters as well as a new Japanese theme with vocals called “Rising,” by the Japanese band Ambience. Starting with episode 46 an alternate anime intro was used, featuring the new theme “Dakishimetai Dare Yori Mo.”

The Simpsons: In HD!

How did I miss this!? I'm always reading up on my favorite shows and movies along with online pieces related to technology, electronics and whatnot. But somehow I missed hearing about The Simpsons finally making the move to the HD world. :) This past weekend's episode was their first to air in HD. Yes, it's aired on the HD signal before but the program itself wasn't created in HD before. So if you're a little techno-entertainment-geek like myself, it was a big deal. And I missed it. Grrrr.

Today, Feb 17th, is the date when ALL TV broadcasting signals in the US were supposed to switch from analog to digital. But apparently they felt not everybody would be ready...blah blah blah...so it was postponed until June. I read that some areas are going ahead with the full switchover anyway. I don't think L.A. is one of them though.

Anyhow, to celebrate the transition to HD, The Simpsons' opening title sequence, which by now we're all very familiar with, finally got a fun little makeover! Check it out:

Happy 1st Birthday!

It was a year ago today that I started this blog. Awwww. Happy Birthday! :) I'm glad I've been able to keep up with it so far, and hope to continue to do so. As long as someone continues reading, of course. :)

DOLLHOUSE: First Reactions

I just finished watching the series premiere of Joss Whedon's return to television, "Dollhouse", staring Eliza "Faith the Vampire Slayer" Dushku. What did I think of it? Well, if you know me, do you really have to ask? Whedon could create a show staring a stick figure against a white background and I'd still watch it! hehe That's how much faith (no pun intended) I have in the man's work.

Dollhouse, in a nutshell, is about this organization (or company? not sure yet exactly) that has these people..."actives"...that they can wipe their memories clean one moment and then give them a whole new character, personality, set of skills, knowledge and even physical/emotional programming. Dushku plays Echo, one of these actives. These actives...aka dolls...can pretty much be whoever they want to program them to be, depending on what the client who hires them is requesting. This is all hush hush, of course. So there are people out there looking for this place...this dollhouse. And what happens if one of these actives suddenly starts to remember things, after her memory is wiped?

So far, I'm really liking the show. It's too early to tell if I'm going to LOVE it like I did with Buffy, but I have a good feeling about it. I just hope that they treat the show well, both audiences and FOX executives, and they let it stick around for a long while.

I was a bit surprised at one thing I felt was missing from the show, which I've always loved from Whedon's work. And that would be the quirky, comedic, pop-culture type elements. I felt that, from the one episode I saw, the series seems to be a bit more serious and dramatic in tone. The action and suspense is still here, which I love. But I couldn't help but miss the funny one-liners and quirky characters that have stood out among Whedon's other programs. But hey, can't always be exactly the same...right?

I can't wait to see what happens next. And a major plus: limited commercials! Love that!

Dollhouse Terminator

This Friday can't possibly get here any quicker! I can't wait! :) I love this grindhouse styled promo they've been running for the Terminator/Dollhouse Friday night lineup...

HEROES: Trust and Blood

Another Monday, another new Heroes came and went. So of course that means another entry of my random comments, thoughts and ramblings on the episode. So, as always, STOP READING NOW if you haven't seen the episode, since there'll be SPOILERS from here on.

Ok, first off just gotta say I was once again pleased with this episode. Sometimes I feel like my opinions on each episode may not even matter, since I always like them. Can I ever even dislike or, God forbid, hate an episode!?

Anyone else feel just a bit cheated though that we didn't get to see some big plane crash landing sequence? When the episode starts, that's already taken place and the prisoners have all been scattered and running away. But then again, this is still a TV show and I know they have to try to cut costs whenever they can, so it's understandable. I actually liked how they used Nathan's conversation on the phone about the incidents to tell the episode's story. I also liked how his scenes were in black & white and then eventually turn into color once we're all caught up to the present and it's revealed who he was talking to all this time. I actually thought he'd be talking to the president, for some reason...maybe explaining to him why everything went wrong.

So Noah. Is he only involved in all this to protect his daughter? To keep her out of this and safe from capture? I kept getting that vibe through all this episode, as if he's got his own agenda within this mission, just like he's always had in the past. Noah can really be a bad ass (in a good way) when he wants to be, so hopefully he's still on the good side.

And Daphne (aka speedster, aka nemesis)...oh, poor "not faster than a speeding bullet" Daphne. :( I actually liked her character. And I loved her for Parkman. So it was sad that she got shot. Notice I didn't say "killed"...because on this show you just never know for sure. Hell, I still think Elle and Isaac have a good chance of coming back! lol Or...maybe not so much. There's always time travel cameos, though. :) But yeah, I never take a character's death scene as 100% certain until I get some solid proof. You know...such as the whole Sylar burning Elle's body. We saw Daphne get shot, fall and then left for dead. But I hope she somehow survives. I don't know...maybe her internal body parts have acceleration properties as well and can speed up her healing in some way. Just a thought. I'd just love to see her back and have her and Parkman have a happy ending with cute little mind reading speedy babies! Is that too much to ask for?

Oh and why didn't Parkman, as soon as he saw Daphne right at the scene where she gets shot in his painting, do something to warn her instantly, have her speed away and hide or at the very least...duck! Do all that hugging and whatnot later, give your girl a little heads up first! I'm just sayin'. Who knows though, maybe this all served a purpose. Maybe Parkman is meant to play a big role in taking down these people. This could be the match that ignites the fire within him. He's wanted nothing more than to just lead a normal life and try to forget about this whole world of powers. But now, more than ever, he may have to embrace them. Already we saw him do it, when he mind-controlled the agents and had them shoot each other.

And can't forget about Sylar. Crazy-as-hell yet oh-so-damn-cool Sylar! Off to find his daddy dearest. But best of all, he's got a little Sylar Jr along for the ride now. lol It's like Batman & Robin...if they had gone evil, that is. Can't wait to see what those two get into.

By the way, who do you think Claire's mystery texting friend is? The only two people I could think of were her mother and her friend from school, I think his name was Wes (that kid who could fly). I really doubt it's Wes, though. Her mother...hmmm...could be. Yes, she supposedly died in that fire. But she's the firestarter after all! Fire comes out of her, you'd think she could survive the fire, no? We'll see. I'm not placing any bets though because I am 99.9% of the time I am wrong on my guesses and theories. Although, I did pick up on the fact that Peter can only keep one power at a time now in my last Heroes blog, which he himself confirmed in this episode. Way to go for that .1% of the time that I'm right! :)

I'm still waiting on the episode where we find out what Mr. Muggles powers are and where he's been lately. You just know that little guy is hiding something!

Double Standard

I was walking to my car today after work, climbing up the 4 levels of stairs in the parking structure. In front of me there was an older lady, by which I just mean she was somewhat older than me. She left the stairs on the third floor as I proceeded up one more level, and looking back at me she said something like, "Thank goodness I was able to get up fast because I saw how tall you were and thought you'd be taking two stairs at a time with those long legs!" Now, granted, this is usually true. I do like to climb two steps at a time and I do happen to have long legs. hehe So I wasn't really insulted or anything. I just found it funny that she'd actually say this to a total stranger.

Now, let's pretend I was way shorter, and had really short legs, and this lady was actually behind me. If she then had to slow her pace a bit so that I can get up the stairs in front of her, would she have then said to me something like, "Thank goodness I was able to slow down because I saw how short you are and thought you'd take forever to climg the stairs with those short legs!" Of course she wouldn't! (Unless she was just some evil person!)

It's funny how people...random absolute strangers...will often point out to me that I'm "soooo tall" or have "long legs" or "long arms". But what if I was super short. I'm sure nobody would say a word, right? So is it ok to point out the obvious to others, often at their expense or maybe even slight humiliation, as long as you yourself think you're not really insulting them? If that person seems to have the better end of the stick, is it ok to comment on it?

Another scenario: a really petite thin woman sitting at a restaurant orders a huge meal and eats it all. An onlooker comments, "Wow! How can you eat all that!" The woman probably feels a bit embarrassed by the comment. But what if it where an overweight woman who ordered the same meal. People may be thinking stuff but I doubt anyone will say anything.

So is it really ok to comment on stuff about complete strangers as long as YOU feel it's not a bad thing? Cuz honestly...sometimes I think people should just keep things to themselves. Like our mommas always said..."If you can't say something nice...don't say anything at all."

Dream Job

I dreamt about work last night. Or rather, changes at work. I don't remember everything at this moment, just bits and pieces. I was still working where I do now, at present time (after the layoffs from January). For whatever reason, I was given a new position within the company. I think it was something in the Human Resources department, since I was moved and seated in a cubicle near that area. Right now I work within the Product department. Long story short, I wasn't really enjoying my new job. It brought back all those feelings of confusion and nervousness that I tend to get when I start a new job. And plus, my boss was a lunatic! She wasn't someone that I actually recognized from my real life job though. She came by at one point and pretty much just dropped a giant yellow phone book into my desk, opens it up to the "T" section under Telephones and points at this big one page add for a company that sells office phones. She scribbles some weird note on the page (more like a glyph that I couldn't understand) and says, "Get me two certificates!" Then she just waddles away and says nothing else. I had no idea what she wanted. I noticed there was a number on there and it said "For a free brochure call..." Was that what she meant by certificates, that she wanted a brochure? Of course, the easy thing to do would be to follow her and ask. But for some reason she gave me the impression that she wasn't the approachable type and hated to be bothered. Plus, I tend to like solving my own problems using my creative thinking skills, which, mind you, have been praised before in the workplace. hehe

Then another man walks by collecting the "time sheets", which I guess was a form that I had to fill out declaring what hours I worked. Again, I was confused, since I currently just clock in and out using a time clock machine. When he saw I didn't have mine, he just demanded I have it ready soon and walked away. Again, I was just left confused. I walked back to my old desk to try to gather some of my things, not having been given the chance to get them when I was sent to my new desk. As I got to it, I noticed there was already a woman throwing my stuff into a box, clearing the desk for herself. Damn...they move quickly here! lol

I don't know what the whole point of the dream was. All I know is that it was full of those "new job" feelings I always dread. Being the "new guy" and not knowing yet how everything works, whose nice and who isn't, what it is exactly I'm meant to do, etc. I know this job I have now very well and am so comfortable in it, which can be a good and bad thing depending how you look at it. Regardless, I have a feeling I'll be somewhere new before the year's up.